Sniffles

My baby girl passed away today. My mom told me that she had acute kidney failure and she needed to put her down, so she did. Mama said that Sniffles was crying and crying. Then mama called to her and saw her at the bottom of the stairs not moving, unresponsive. So mama went down and picked her up and saw that blood was coming out of her mouth. So she took Sniffles to the vet and they ran some test and found that her levels were too high to save her. Mama decided to put her down.

I have cried and cried and cried all day today. I've cried so much that my eyes hurt and my nose hurts and I'm so drained, that I am too tired to cry.

I miss my baby sooo much, because she was mine.

Aug 17, 2017

Dear Delysia,

I have been having a lot of conversations lately with Traci, that have revolved around his blessings and revelations about how his ex-girlfriend is coming back to him. It has been so exhausting to have to listen to him about her. I hate her, as you know. I just hate her. She is a awful human being and he has never learned how to let go of the past, especially when it comes to his Ex-girlfriends. Time and time again, he looks back to try and solve the riddle of the ex girlfriend and it cannot be solved with the past. It can only be solved with a future girlfriend. The ex-girlfriend is gone. She won’t play the game anymore.

I have grown tired of the subject, yet that is pretty much all he wants to talk about. So I am happy to listen. That is all I can do at this point, but it will have to do for now. I love him. I can’t help but want to help him, but I’m not sure much help that I can be to him for much longer. Soon, his lady will come back to him and will bring him the happiness that he’s been looking for his whole life. It brings me a lot of peace that I am able to assist him in some way to help him feel like he is worthwhile.

I love hims. :D