Good thing I've got some holes in my sweater!

Happy S.A.D. Day for one and all! Why is it a S.A.D. day today? It's Single Awareness Day! HURRAH! Drum roll please! BAM!

Usually during this pagan holiday surrounding the idea of a winged angel armed with an arsenal of arrows that pierce the heart to fall in love with the first the eyes behold: we yearn, nay crave for the emotion of love. Though love seems to be a fickle entity indeed. Love seems to wisp in on the spring breeze, rain upon our hearts with the promise of a bountiful harvest in the fall and manage to brush our skin with faint relief only to find that it has past.

Though as flighty as young birds trying their wings, Love has the ability to endure, fortify and become an eternal fire of loyal companionship. Perhaps that is why we all ache to have the longing fulfilled in the deepest caverns of our soul. It brings new life to our vast sight as far as the eye can see, only to be blinded by the vast expanse of its enduring fragility. Irony seems to scoff at the name Valentine. Truly it should be recognized as S.A.D. For with Love abounding in your life, you steer away for the emotional monster we call sadness. Otherwise, without such warmth to frolic in the abscesses of our complexity, it is truly sad.

Love comes in all shapes and sizes. Who is to say that because you don't have a husband/wife, boy/girlfriend dictates the lack of Love? Are we not apart of families that have vested interest in our well being and happiness? Do we not have spirit inside each of us to look upon one another and see that inside we are all the same? Love has many shades of color: compassion, kindness, empathy, virtuous and loyal to name a few of it's hues. Must Love be manifest in a being of likewise frame of where it comes from? I think not.

When I begin to doubt whether or not I miss out of the very ideal of intimate exchange of physical, emotional and spiritual aptitudes, I often remember a saying:

"You reap what you sow."

'In dark and dank do they grow and lie, but Oh how they blossom' ... soon, it will be my turn to experience the depth and breadth of what others do now. 

May we all find Love and hold tight to it when it brushes by. Who knows when it will pass by again.

 

The Flood is Gone

The wedding of my sister has brought the grief and bliss to come full circle in my family. It is interesting to think that it took so long for karma to come full circle to what has been a source of mixed emotion.

I'm so happy to know that though it has taken 29 years for the ethereal circle to come full swing, it has mended all wounds. It brings hope to me that in this life, things can be made right. But mostly, I believe it has been my pride and stupidity that wouldn't allow me to let go of my grief until just now.

Perhaps because I've been conditioned or have allowed cognitive dissonance conditioning not let go of the past. To some degree I feel that if I did let go, it would betray the others who were affected, I'm strong enough to hold the burden, but it only just festered.

Time heals all things. Though I believe that perhaps, it was me who could have let go of the scales of grudges. All has been said that needs to be said. Ears have listened to what needs to be listened to. I feel now at peace.

Love truly is the only thing that can heal and make all things right. I'm grateful that I am able to have experienced it at the depth that I have. That way, I may allow it to lead me to a better place inside my heart and soul.