The orchids are changing so much! The other day, Cherry Beth called my like 4 times! He never calls me that much?! I was with my family at the time and didn't have my phone on me when he did call me, so I would just call him back and he didn't answer... so I just told him that I would call him when I was done with my family party. I called him and he said that a friend of him, Ty was hurting for help. Cory Beth offered to help him by paying for a bus pass, but he didn't have ID to claim the bus pass. Apparently, this friend, has been in drugs, being homeless and can't be home for some reason. So Cory decided to drive down to Las Vegas to pick him up and bring him home!
When
Cherry B told me this, I was totally shocked. I was talking to him when
he in Cedar City, like 3 hours away from Las Vegas! I was in shock.
Cory just went and picked him up and drove him home to Cory's place! I'm
still in shock! I would have never had thought that Cory would have
done that for his friend Ty?! Traci had told me that he knew that Cory
Beth would do almost anything for the friends that he cared for. Traci
said that CB is very loyal. I didn't really agree with that idea. I
don't think CB has that many friends that he would be willing to do
things like that. CB was very generous about it. He just said that he's
trying to do his part.
It is funny. Delysia, I was really upset with him for some of the things that I notice about him. I noticed that when I think like we are becoming friends, I realize that we're not really. He only contacts me when he wants something. When he wants something, he'll just talk about himself and then off he goes. That annoys me a lot! I find that to be so ingenue. Yet, that is all that he knows how to do. Yet, he'll go and drive to pick up some dude in Las Vegas?!
I told Traci that CB was headed to Las Vegas and how CB was just chatting me up, to tell me about all the good he's doing. Traci said, 'Isn't interesting that you and Cory are becoming better friends? He is acting like he really likes talking to you right?' I said, I'm not really thinking about that, but I probably should start thinking like that. CB doesn't really talk to me all that much, but when he does, he has a lot to ask and say about girls and his life. I don't really give him much about mine. I don't really think he really cares that much and he doesn't have any opinions about it, so why say anything.
Then Traci has been getting on my nerve because I feel like he's treating me like I'm nothing anymore. I'm just a dude that he called 3x's a day to cry, complain, whine and moan about how God is so mean to him, He's never been loved, he can't get over this broken girl,... yadah yadah yadah. Then when he finally gets what he has always have wanted, that broken girl comes back to him so he can try and marry her, I am a inconvenience. I've know that this would be the case, yet I liked to think that it wouldn't come to this. I called him a couple of times and he is very not there. He seems very uninterested in what I'm saying. So I feel like I'm talking to a wall. I spoke to him today and he just didn't say much. Then I said ok, thanks for listening. He then said that I shouldn't say it like that. I said, like what? He said like the conversation was not worthwhile. I said that I didn't say it like that. Then he said that he wanted to be honest and say the reason he wasn't really into talking was because our conversations last for at least 40 mins and he was reading stuff online and was about to go do some things. I said that it was fine and told him that I'll chat with him later. He said that I should remember that I'll see him on Friday.
I was so upset! I felt like he just told me that he can't be bothered with me wanting to talk. He forgets that most of the conversations came from him because he was calling me all day, everyday to cry and whine and complain! And now that he has his woman and some how found friends to hang out with, he can't be bothered. He would complain that he didn't have friends to hang out with or do things with. Now that his broken girl is back, he's found social things to do, so he can show her off in a good light. Because most of us who know that thing, don't like her because she's not a nice girl! So I roll my eyes at him. He's treating me like he did when we first met! He's forgotten that I'm the one that had to rearrange my schedule, give up sleep, give up friend time to listen to him bitch! I'm mad at him.
It is funny. Delysia, I was really upset with him for some of the things that I notice about him. I noticed that when I think like we are becoming friends, I realize that we're not really. He only contacts me when he wants something. When he wants something, he'll just talk about himself and then off he goes. That annoys me a lot! I find that to be so ingenue. Yet, that is all that he knows how to do. Yet, he'll go and drive to pick up some dude in Las Vegas?!
I told Traci that CB was headed to Las Vegas and how CB was just chatting me up, to tell me about all the good he's doing. Traci said, 'Isn't interesting that you and Cory are becoming better friends? He is acting like he really likes talking to you right?' I said, I'm not really thinking about that, but I probably should start thinking like that. CB doesn't really talk to me all that much, but when he does, he has a lot to ask and say about girls and his life. I don't really give him much about mine. I don't really think he really cares that much and he doesn't have any opinions about it, so why say anything.
Then Traci has been getting on my nerve because I feel like he's treating me like I'm nothing anymore. I'm just a dude that he called 3x's a day to cry, complain, whine and moan about how God is so mean to him, He's never been loved, he can't get over this broken girl,... yadah yadah yadah. Then when he finally gets what he has always have wanted, that broken girl comes back to him so he can try and marry her, I am a inconvenience. I've know that this would be the case, yet I liked to think that it wouldn't come to this. I called him a couple of times and he is very not there. He seems very uninterested in what I'm saying. So I feel like I'm talking to a wall. I spoke to him today and he just didn't say much. Then I said ok, thanks for listening. He then said that I shouldn't say it like that. I said, like what? He said like the conversation was not worthwhile. I said that I didn't say it like that. Then he said that he wanted to be honest and say the reason he wasn't really into talking was because our conversations last for at least 40 mins and he was reading stuff online and was about to go do some things. I said that it was fine and told him that I'll chat with him later. He said that I should remember that I'll see him on Friday.
I was so upset! I felt like he just told me that he can't be bothered with me wanting to talk. He forgets that most of the conversations came from him because he was calling me all day, everyday to cry and whine and complain! And now that he has his woman and some how found friends to hang out with, he can't be bothered. He would complain that he didn't have friends to hang out with or do things with. Now that his broken girl is back, he's found social things to do, so he can show her off in a good light. Because most of us who know that thing, don't like her because she's not a nice girl! So I roll my eyes at him. He's treating me like he did when we first met! He's forgotten that I'm the one that had to rearrange my schedule, give up sleep, give up friend time to listen to him bitch! I'm mad at him.
He texted me later today and said this: Dang it! I was going to call you in between jobs but I spaced it.
This text makes him look guilty. I didn't respond. I need to come to terms better that these orchids aren't going to be permanent, unless they need something from me. I need to learn my lesson not to base so much of my energy, light, love in people who will take it for granted. My family love me and will always love me. These orchids only love the attention and have eyes and hearts for themselves. I don't have time for that. I did stupid things like put people like that in my center of my world. Instead, I need to focus on my family and friends here and there.
I'm really upset, but telling you this, helps me feel better. I need a better relationship with God, not these boys.
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