I know it has been a long time since I wrote. It has been two weeks I believe. So many things have happened and I am really sorry that I haven't been keeping up.
First
of all, I have been battling some sad and happy moments. The happiest
moment was when my mama came to visit me this last weekend. She came, I
made this really delicious brunch. I invited my closest friends. It was
so wonderful. I made vegetable skewers, turkey sausage with sage, a
spiced chai tea and omelettes with goat cheese. I asked mom to pray for
us and she just filled the room with the Spirit! She prayed that we all
would find our happiness and be guided with peace and strength. I
started to feel a little choked up. I learned what the Spirit felt like
from her influence. Mom can truly tap into the divine. I was happy. My
friends told me that mother was a delight. They also noticed that the
facial expressions that she makes, are the same ones that I make
sometimes. I suppose I am very animated like my mom. She is my treasure.
I love her so much!
Then my friends left and Traci's mom came over and they met. I was happy that Traci's mom came over to meet my mom. I really want Traci to meet my mom someday. I want mama to meet my best friend cousin! I told him all about it. I was really happy about it.
The other happiness that I had was noticing more and more that I am worthwhile. I have seen that the talk of Old Aunt Rose is becoming more and more true. When we live to serve others, it brings a lot of happiness... or rather the type of happiness that lingers, that brings a peace and assurance that you're becoming who you have always have been and meant to be: A child of God. I have a lot to be thankful for with my mother. Mother has taught me to look for the needs of others and to accommodate them. She was always serving others and asking us kids to be mindful of the needs and limitations of others. I am so grateful that I have developed a lot of good things about myself that mothers has. I am beginning to see and believe more and more that I am truly a treasure. I feel the Spirit a lot more when I forget myself and look to be a support to others. I am really good at it. Mama taught me how and I am grateful that I am becoming a beautiful reflection of her!
I am also noticing that the love and attention that I have yearned for from being in a relationship, is coming in the form of other people here and there. I am grateful for my friends that are genuinely interested in me and my well being. A co-worker of mine, Gracious, has been so kind to me. He has thought of me and has brought me food a couple of times out of the kindness of his heart. I know that when you treat others the way that you want to be treated, eventually, those people will treat you as such. Some manifest those traits faster than others. But I know they always come around. It is up to them if they sustain it.
I feel more and more content with how my life is right now. The only thing that has truly changed is me. My circumstances are not really changing all that quickly, but I am. I am thankful for that.
I love you Delysia.
Then my friends left and Traci's mom came over and they met. I was happy that Traci's mom came over to meet my mom. I really want Traci to meet my mom someday. I want mama to meet my best friend cousin! I told him all about it. I was really happy about it.
The other happiness that I had was noticing more and more that I am worthwhile. I have seen that the talk of Old Aunt Rose is becoming more and more true. When we live to serve others, it brings a lot of happiness... or rather the type of happiness that lingers, that brings a peace and assurance that you're becoming who you have always have been and meant to be: A child of God. I have a lot to be thankful for with my mother. Mother has taught me to look for the needs of others and to accommodate them. She was always serving others and asking us kids to be mindful of the needs and limitations of others. I am so grateful that I have developed a lot of good things about myself that mothers has. I am beginning to see and believe more and more that I am truly a treasure. I feel the Spirit a lot more when I forget myself and look to be a support to others. I am really good at it. Mama taught me how and I am grateful that I am becoming a beautiful reflection of her!
I am also noticing that the love and attention that I have yearned for from being in a relationship, is coming in the form of other people here and there. I am grateful for my friends that are genuinely interested in me and my well being. A co-worker of mine, Gracious, has been so kind to me. He has thought of me and has brought me food a couple of times out of the kindness of his heart. I know that when you treat others the way that you want to be treated, eventually, those people will treat you as such. Some manifest those traits faster than others. But I know they always come around. It is up to them if they sustain it.
I feel more and more content with how my life is right now. The only thing that has truly changed is me. My circumstances are not really changing all that quickly, but I am. I am thankful for that.
I love you Delysia.
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