Moments with Cherry Beth

Dear Delysia,

Here is the conversation that I had with Cory Beth. It really makes me happy and yet sad. I never know where I am at with him. It has been such a roller coaster ride for me to try and understand and want to. He is so different than me, and I wish that I could connect with him. Yet, I am at peace with not connecting with him. I'm not sure that he'll be a friend that I want in the future. I could be wrong, but I'm not sure. I sort of don't really care either. However I am very happy that what he shared with me, was the nicest thing he has ever told me. I sometimes wish he was always that way. I suppose I haven't learned to accept things as they are. But his kindness made me happy.

Cory Beth: Josh here's what comes to my mind regarding what the bishop told you. We're here in life to learn, grow, and become like God. There are so many lessons we need to learn and so many talents we're supposed to develop. Most people have aspirations, goals, or at least desires to develop these talents. People want to develop skills to make them great people. People in your ward - and all around you - wish they had the talents you have. Wayyyyyyyy more than you realize, people admire what you have and would love to have it for themselves. Talents like your insanely incredible ability to interact with people, or your talent to see truth at such a deep level and understand the world as you do, or your ability to act for and be yourself even if it isn't the norm. You have already developed so far and achieved much of what we're supposed to in this life - and even the life to come.

This tells me 1- you were an amazing soul in the pre-earth life. You were extraordinarily valiant and developed at a rate greater than most. This is apparent in your earthly abilities. perhaps you developing further than most gives you the opportunity to have trials that most could not handle. Which leads to blessings far far greater than most when you prove faithful. I believe you that you will be compensated with greater blessings than a normal marriage in the hereafter.

2. So I forgot what my number 2 was. If I had the intelligence you had, I would have remembered it 

3. You can be incredibly grateful for the amount that you have developed. You are what so many people wish they were.

Me: Really?.... I don't see that.... 

I mean, I have a lot be grateful for.I told my mom of what the Bishop told me and how he really complimented me. She said that a guy at the wedding, had spoke with Rosie. He said to Rosie that he was very impressed with the sons of my family. He said that the boys didn't seem to have rivalry or hurt feelings with one another.And he also said that he noticed the the boys seemed to care and love each other. He was very impressed with the tender affection that Baby Phat, me and Jacob pooh showed to each other... He said that he was very impressed with our attitude in helping out.That made me happy, because that reflection is of my mother, not of Rosie. Rosie doesn't help. He is very selfish.

So, I was really happy that mama told me that. Mama taught us kids to really be helpers and supports to each other. I am happy that strangers notice. It just is a manifestation that mama was a good parent. For she has always entertained the idea that she wasn't one.I just felt peace and happiness for mama. We were a great reflection of her teachings. Even on Sunday, I was really feeling troubled, annoyed and uninterested in being social.Yet, I was just really surrounded by the spirit. It was like the warm fuzzies were so thick that I could float in the air.

Then, Traci told me yesterday, that when he is around other people, he feels very cynical and has a lot doubts in his mind with what is going on in his life.But then he said, that he noticed that when he talks to me, and prays, that he feels at peace and feels calm about what he's been told and given by me and by revelation. That made me feel good inside. It means that Traci and I are on the right path. And even though he may not recognize the spirit when he speaks with me, he has recognized the way he feels and how clear he can see when we counsel with one another.

That makes me happy.