Booty Zumba

I had so much fun last night going to the gym. I went to booty zumba for the first in a long time, and it was SO MUCH FUN! I looked real good in the mirror! HAHAHAHAHAA

What was even more fun, was a girl in my ward showed up in the class, and she said, she had so much fun dancing next to me that she wanted to be my gym partner! So I said, YES! So we are going to be gym buddies Monday night and dance, dance revolution at the gym! HAHAHAHA...

 Her name is Sara Taylor. She told me about her boyfriend. She's only been dating him for 2 months. She just told me about her insecurities about him, that she is not sure if dating is the best idea for her with him, yet at the same breath, she was so happy to be with him. She showed me pics of him. He's a good man. She'll likely marry him if she can overcome his lack of emotional unavailability. He likes her a lot, but isn't very much for sharing thoughts or feelings. It's his lack of responses that gives her a little bit of anxiety. It's funny that men and women are so very different and yet, they are so very complimentary to one another.... :). She also described how some of his behavior makes her think that he's a little off. She described some behavior to me and I was thinking... he may have Autism or be a psychopath! HAAHHAHAa... but for real though! Sara is a social worker too, so she may do some assessments on him! LOL

I really liked talking to her about her dreams, wishes and hopes for the future. For a moment, it is nice to look at people and see glimpses of what could be at that moment! It is beautiful! People, are such wonderful beings. There is so much wonder in eternal beings that are trying to be the best they can be. I have been so fortunate to rub shoulders with such grand sisters in my ward. Where I live, there is such strength, such glorious spirit among the sisters. I have also seen such changes in the men. I suppose, my time is done now. I don't know what more an old cat lady can offer the young generation whose minds are set on eternal marriage. I think I need to speak with the Lord to see if it is time to die in the pasture.

I spoke with Thad last night and he seems happy. He actually seems so happy. John is still grieving the loss of his father, so it is interesting to see how they interact with each other. John came by while I was chatting with Thad about the surprise b-day party Thad is throwing for John. It's funny, Thad doesn't really have anything planned. The party is next week!? I offered to assist and he wants me to make a cake?! I don't know if I like Thad that much to make a cake for his bf?!... but I will if he needs that much help. Thad just laughed and said he wasn't sure what to do but go to dinner and then come back home and play games. I gave him suggestions of what I thought would be fun... so we'll see. Thad wants me to go to pasture too. LOL

The really interesting thing, is I think that Booty Zumba can be my replacement for Panda performances. I can zone out, be myself, work the dance floor, look over my shoulder and see maybe I'm being checked out?!... fully knowing that nothing will come from that... AND I'm surrounded by ladies who are just trying to be skinny! It seems like a win/win. Though, it is not what I want, I suppose it is better for me.

Of all the things that I have given up, Panda is not something that I want to give up! I love the way I feel when I do it! I feel so alive. Booty Zumba makes me feel alive too, but in a very different way. I have a lot to think about and consider.

Thanks for listening...