May 26

Traci,

My talk with Cory was really strange last night. He was very much a different person on the phone. He seemed like he was looking forward to talking to me. Cory isn’t a chatter. He was talking to me like he knew me for years, the way that he speaks to you. It was a surprise. It was also a huge surprise that he told me about a topic that happened in his day and then he said, “Let me tell you about.” He then went on about that subject! It was really nice to listen to him be really excited to talk about his day and give details of his day! Then he decided to go on a run while I was chatting with him. He kept up with the conversation! He was actually really wanting to talk to me. Then he apologized for not responding to my emails. He said that he really liked reading my thoughts and was appreciative of my efforts. I told him it was ok, because he doesn’t have a lot of time to chat, so the email writing is more for me than for him. Though, it was nice to notice that he was making time for me and that he wanted to. My time was up after 30 mins, so I had to get off. He then said, “Alright man, I love you. Have a awesome night.” I am completely shocked?! I never in my wildest dreams would have thought that he would ever be like this. I mean, he sent me a painting out of the blue. He thought about me, decided that he might want to help out, so he bought something and then sent to my house on a whim?! Honestly, it is like a dream or a fairy tale, w ith these moments with him. Though the difference is, he’s just a friend being friendly and nice. I’m in shock and somewhat uncomfortable. I don’t know what to do with these new feelings. I am appreciative of his efforts and feelings. I am just not sure what to do with them. I see it as a blessing. Cory cares for me. Even the way that he speaks to me, is different. He sometimes speaks to me as if I belong to him. It is strange feeling.