Dear Cory,
I am writing you this letter because I am not sure how else to share with you what has come to my mind from the past month or so.
First of all, I want to say, thank you. Thank you for being very patience with me. Thank you for being willing to listen to my crazy attics about my life. I imagine it was like listening to a broken record. Thank you for being nice to me. Thank you for your advice and sharing your thoughts and feelings with me. You're a good man. May you find a woman that can be equally as wonderful as you are. May your life always find the happiness and peace you've always wanted.
As I have gotten to know you, see you for who you are and to witness the changes and wonders that you've done with the help of the Lord, I am in awe. You're a wonderful human being. A grand soldier in the army of our God. Your determination to be obedient in praiseworthy and commendable. You've always stayed a covenant keeper. I admire your determination to endure to the end, no matter what. I admire the fearlessness you have in committing to someone that you've grown to love. It is like a beautiful fantasy when you called me and said that you could see yourself with Bri Stauss. I thought it was so cute that you had known her for an hour and came to that conclusion.
I wanted to let you know that I admire your many strengths and hope that they will continue to serve you well as you continue forward in this life. I am sorry that I may have not always been the best support to you. I have tried to give you all that I have to offer that you may become the best person that you can be.
I feel that I need to share with you a warning before you lose some of the blessings that you've been told that you may have, IF you keep up your end.
The main blessing that I first gave to you was, if you continued on the path of being the best person that you can be, that your sister, Kayla would be able to go to the Temple and see you get married. The current path that you're on, that reality is fading.
The blessing that you'll marry someone who will be an equal to you, is also fading.
Let me share with you why Pineapples have been scattered around in your life. There are 3 folds for you:
1. Knowing pineapples throughout your life, gives you an advantage to save your sister. Your sister won't come back without your help. Because of who she is and because of who you are, your kinship with her is strong. If she doesn't make it to your wedding, she'll not come back until her late 40's. That is IF you keep in contact with her.
2. I shared with you that once you're married, you'll be given an opportunity to be Bishop. You'll save many people who suffer with a lot of issues, regarding potential divorce and consistency with commandments. You'll also save the youth and young adults battling severe issues, including drugs, porn, pineapple, addictions... There will be 2 kids that will be around the same age as your kids. They will be influential to your kids. It will be a girl and a boy. You'll save them in a way that will allow the boy to serve a mission and the girl to remain faithful through her teen years and on.
3. Your son, will face pineapple issues. He will be your most perfect son. He will be the perfect reflection of you and your wife. He'll be everything that you'd hope in a son. Though, as he grows, you'll notice that one day he just changes. You'll not notice the change until he starts to grow distant from the church. The time before he's about to serve a mission, he'll share with you that he's a pineapple and that he's dating someone now. He won't have done anything that will keep him from a mission, but he'll be close.
.... Your pillar won't be your wife any longer. It will be your son. You interacting with me, helps you understand how your sister will feel. You interacting with your sister will help you see her point of view. You'll be prepared for those 2 kids when they come. IF you don't help these people, saving your son will be incredibly hard. Those 2 kids, you won't be able to relate with and help. Without your sister's positive influence, your son will fall. He'll go to her for comfort, not you. Those 2 kids will either persuade him to stay true and resist or they'll encourage him to do things he shouldn't.
Learning to interact and connect with people is so very important. Learning to love and show love is so very important. You're building a base of what could either help you stand with these major things or you'll falter the whole way.
You've promised that you'd do certain things and have not done them to the best of your ability. You'll pay for your mistakes much later in life, if you aren't able to remain steady with your promises. I have learned that once you graduate from school in April 2017, I am no longer chained to you. I have also learned that I will never live near you again.
It is not in my nature to keep up with a friend if I feel like they don't care about me. I don't speak to you everyday as you said you'd do. You have not kept in contact with your sister either, as you've said you'd do on a daily basis.
The Lord has promised that you'll do well in school, that you'll get the type of job that will help you get out of debt and help you provide comfortable living conditions. He has promised that if you keep your promises, that you'll be given help to overcome the dangers that will befall you and your family in the future. If you continue on your path that you're on now, you'll lose the tools necessary to succeed in the future.
As of now, I don't see myself in your future anymore. I want to be able to help you accomplish the things that you need to, to do the tasks that God would have you do. I don't think it's too late for your sister, though it is fading fast.
I will continue to pray, fast and put your name in the temple and assist you when you request it. I will try my hardest to continue to love and support you the best way I know how. I am trying to continue to share with you good, uplifting, happy things that are happening in my life.
Our friendship gives me a lot of anxiety. It reminds me of my friendship with Tristan. I am trying really hard not to feel that way. I am trying to like and love you for your strengths and not feeling resentment for your weaknesses. I am sorry that I resist you all the time. I am sorry when you feel like I am mean to you. I am sorry that I'm not always positive and uplifting. I am trying to interact with you in a way that you'll feel comfortable and supported. I will do better to making our interactions more comfortable until the end.
I realized that I have interacted with you, by loving you with conditions. I am trying to change that. I recognize that I can't expect anything from you. I need to love you unconditionally. I just want you to like me. I want our friendship to be like the friendship that I have with Trevor. I just want to talk to you. I feel the spirit every time I speak to you. I also think that I should not want those things. I should just want you to be successful. I can do that.
You're a wonderful human being. I hope that all your dreams can come true. May you always have eyes to see and a heart to feel the Spirit of God.
- Joshua
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