The Puppy pt 5

Dear Delysia,

Last night, Traci and I spoke to each other for about several hours. I fasted that he would feel the Spirit. I fasted that Eric would feel the strength of the promise that was given to him about his wife a year ago. I also fasted that I could be better friends with Cory Beth.

I skipped on church because I was talking to Traci. I have forgotten that when Traci has new sense of change in his life, he needs a lot of attention. He spoke about how he was hurting that the blessings didn't come at this time in his life. Though, he was willing to be patience and have faith. I feel for him. It saddens me too that his blessings didn't come right now. Though, when God makes promises, they will always come true, IF you do your part.

We talked a lot about gospel topics. What we really talked about was the future. As you know, God has given me the gift to peer into the future when He wills it and when I'm in a position where I can see clearly and worthy. When I'm in a position to feel the Spirit, I can see the future clearly. It's like a glimpse in time. Agency can change things, the future is fluid, nothing is set in stone. Choices solidify the future.

Traci asked me what I saw for Danielle and him in the future. This is what I saw:

Danielle will come back after Traci's first wife has passed away. Who that could be, I don't know yet. Traci doesn't get to choose who the girl is, she chooses. Though that can change. Who Traci marries is in the dark right now.

Danielle will have returned to the church, without a husband or kids. She'll be older. Her face will show the age, sorrow and struggle she's faced. Some how, I'll call or run into Danielle and she'll catch up and tell me that she would like to chat and talk about her life. She'll want to just feel love and support. I'll happily meet her somewhere at a restaurant. When I meet her there, she'll tell me that it has been a real struggle to come back to the church and repent. She'll tell me that she got back to the temple. When I enter the restaurant, I'll see Traci's sign of the water fountain shaped as a sun. When I see that, I'll text Traci to come meet me at our location. He'll resist me for a few and then concede to meet me. It will take Traci about 45 mins to meet me at the food place. In the mean time, Danielle and I nibble on some of the food that we ordered and we'll catch up. During that time, I will pull out the letter Traci wrote to Danielle so many years ago. I'll let her read it and she'll be so emotional that she won't be to finish it, so I'll finish it for her. We'll just clasp each others hands and just cry. She'll then ask me about Traci. For during that whole time that we are friends, I will have never spoken of Traci to her again. I'll tell her that he was married, has kids. Danielle will ask how is wife is. I will tell her that she has been gone for about a year or two. She'll be sad to hear that.

By the time we start talking about Traci, he'll be there almost. I'll ask her if she would like the opportunity to speak to him about his letter to her. She'll be hesitant and respond that she wouldn't mind talking to him, but would be afraid to talk to him because she would wonder if he still really loves her after all those years. By that time, Traci will text me and I'll say to Danielle that she'll get her opportunity to speak to him in person. I would have ordered a gluten free desert. Traci would waddle in, see the sign, look at me and see that my body was hiding Danielle's body and I'll stand and invite him to come sit and eat dessert and talk to Danielle. Traci may get a little bit nervous. He'll probably be really emotional. Danielle will try to hold it together. I will ask them both to sit there and talk about how they feel. I will leave and go about my own stuff.

At that time as well, her ex, Austin will come into my life as well. Or he'll be coming into my life. He'll probably show up after I've gone into the hospital to get a check up on the pain in my stomach. I'll learn that it is cancer and that I'll need to decide to die or fight it with modern forms of treatment. On my way out, I'll see Austin. He'll tell me that he is going to coming for prostate cancer or something like that. I'll learn later that he and I will be doing chemo together for about 3 to 6 months together. It will be a really emotional time for me. I won't survive the treatment. He will. There will be a day when Austin doesn't show up for treatment because he'll be so sick. Danielle will come and visit on her own. She'll ask me why I'm talking to her Ex. She'll know all that things that Traci and I went thru to get to the point in our life now. She'll ask me if me talking to Austin will even help him change. I will tell her that a single grain of rice can tip the balance, so me talking to him will tip the balance and help save him. I will also be so ill and feeling sick, that my spiritual abilities will be enhanced. I see more clearly when I'm sick. I feel the spirit more fully when I'm sick.

Danielle will ask me if she should marry Traci. She'll have a lot of opposition against her to marry him. His kids will not really like it, his in-laws will not like it, some of his other family will find it weird. Not only will she have resistance with his family, but she'll always feel pain that she messed up all those years ago. Being the wife to Traci, will always be second rate for her. I will tell her that she should marry him. The reason is because she'll finally find the happiness that she has always been looking for. I will tell her to just love him. He'll need her, especially when I'm gone. She'll look at me and say, you'll fight this and win. You're so young and pretty, you'll win this. I will look into her eyes and say, I want you to love him.

I'll be crying a lot in the end of my life. My little nieces and nephews won't be so little anymore. But I will always be so happy to see them because I had made a life with them when they were younger and tried to make time with them as they grew up. Now, they'll want me to be around too.

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Traci asked the Lord if all that we talked about was true. The Lord said that all that I have shared with you is true. This is what will happen when it is time for Danielle and Trevor to date again. ... I am never wrong. All the things that I shared with Trevor, his bedtime stories were also truth, but they were flashes in time IF Danielle had chosen to come back in Aug 2015 or June 2016.

Traci also said that he'll be spending a lot of time in the Temple, since the girls he is attracted to are all converts. He said he'll be a Temple President and spend a lot of time there. He also said that when J comes back, that it will be time when Orchid 7 comes to me. or on the cusp of when he comes to me.

Traci also noticed that when he did temple names of J, that he really felt a kinship to them. He was told in prayer that those names are his names too. They are family to him. They see family in a very different way than we do. They see Trevor as family already.

You know it is interesting that Traci has come to know that he and Danielle were supposed to marry and save each other. But because they both ignored the promptings of God, that plan has taken a huge detour. His blessings will still come true, he'll just have to wait longer. He's been so faithful and true during this whole time. He's a wonderful person, with small flaws that are being tempered into something so much more!

... I feel so loved and taken care of. I feel so blessed that Traci is my Best Friend Cousin. I love him as if he was my little brothdr. He's so so cute and I just love him. He is really like a puppy. Traci needs to be petted 3 times a day. If he doesn't, then he get's lonely and then he'll get sick and then he'll get pooped out and then he'll die! He is like my little girl Sniffles. She is sensitive. Traci is too. He is a wonderful soul. I am so lucky that he is my BFC!

.... ^ I said all of that in my little animal/baby voice. LOL....

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As I recount this conversation with you Delysia, Traci has asked me to recount this and keep it safe. His family or future wife cannot know this. It would get in the way. Though, I have been crying to get this written to you. I feel the Spirit when I write these words to you. I hope that you can feel them, while you read these words.

I need to be better. I need repentance and the Spirit all the time. I always feel the Spirit when I speak to the Orchids. They don't always feel it when they speak to me, but I do when I speak to them.

I also learned that I am bound to the Orchids for a certain amount of time. I feel that my chain to Traci is gone. Though, I don't want to let him go. I want him to always been in my life. I feel like my time chained to Cory will end next year in April when he graduates from the MBA program. Once he is done with school, I am unchained. I have a time limit and so do they.

... Having a purpose in life is really nice.

I love you Delysia. You're lovely.