Today and the past couple of days have been really good. It is amazing how doing simple things can change my perception about things.
First and foremost, I have come to terms that I'm going to be an old, single cat lady, name Old Aunt Rose. Second, now that I've come to terms with that, I feel better. There is nothing that I can do about it but make the best with what I've been given.
I noticed on Tuesday, when I went to the Temple. I was just filled with such peace and serenity. My whole day I was really just happy. Nothing really amazing happened to me, I was just at peace. I heard people talking about families, babies, marriage, engagements and what not, and I wasn't phased. I will have to attribute it to being at the Temple and feeling the power that comes from that building!
Today I went to the Temple again. I went to go with my cousin, Boo Boo Kitty. I didn't get any sleep last night either. I didn't get any sleep because my Best Friend Cousin, told me that he received some answers about his life from going to the Temple as well. He told me all these wonderful things, like:
1. He rationalizes his blessings too much
2. He will see his sign on his trip to Lake Powell
3. He is moving to Utah
4. He can get back with his Ex Girl 80, in 3 weeks if he wants too.
5. Ms. J is coming back to date him somehow.
I was completely excited, that I couldn't sleep. I just tossed and turned about all this information. Traci's blessings are coming true! His blessings are coming true this month!!! I should probably get ready for a wedding at the end of this year!
So I went to the Temple today. Boo Boo Kitty didn't make it. She forgot her recommend and was stopped at the door. I just sat in the room, prayed for comfort and peace. Again, I felt that strong sense of peace and serenity in that building. When she didn't show up, I started to leave and there she was, at the door, waiting to be admitted. We talked a little bit and then off I went to work.
The blessing that came to me today was, a guy in my neighborhood posted that he does mechanic work on the side. A friend, Lindsey S. posted that she had him do stuff for her and it really made me want him to do things for me too. He came to my workplace, I had the supplies and he changed my oil and made the engine light go off with a simple repair. He is Native American, so I had to give him something more than just money. I only paid $20 for the oil change. He did a great job! So I am going to have him do my breaks. I just need to buy the supplies again and he'll put new rotors and break pads! This is such a blessing because I have saved hundreds of dollars with his talents! Now I don't need to spend a ridiculous amount of money on a mechanic! I just need safety inspection and register my car... PERFECT!
Then, while I was driving to work again, I realized how much Lindsey's vouch for Tyrone really meant to me. I realized how much of a wonderful person she is. She is amazing, ,AMAZING! She is so nice and wonderful. I mean, I can't say enough good, wonderful things about her. So I called her and left her a voice message. I was getting choked up about it because there was no other way for me to express my gratitude for her kindness and considerations. I am so lucky to be surrounded by genuinely nice, good, thoughtful people!
On another note, Traci has been whining about his choices. He makes me laugh. He whines a lot when he's unsure about things. I've come to the point where I don't care what happens, as long as he is happy. I dread the thought of him marrying 80, yet it seems like the only way for him to find happiness. He has been whining about how he misses her. I think to myself, Really? That axe wound, you miss so much?.... bluugh! I hate her so much! But I am consigned to accept whatever he decides.
Also, I forgot to mention that I knew of this person coming to work today and I wanted to make sure that I looked extra good. The best feature about me, is my flawless skin! That is about it! HAHAAHAHa. So I made sure that I looked really nice and professional and met that person that I found very attractive. Nothing happened. As it should be.
It is strange sometimes to watch people participate in things that I can't. It's funny to see how people function better when they are in romantic relationships vs. being single. I have found that people are better selves when they are with another. It is so strange. Yet, there are plenty of people who are able to find the beauty inside themselves without another.
... that is probably the bitter part of me talking.... sigh.... I still have more work to do.
I miss you Delysia, so MUCH!
4. He can get back with his Ex Girl 80, in 3 weeks if he wants too.
5. Ms. J is coming back to date him somehow.
I was completely excited, that I couldn't sleep. I just tossed and turned about all this information. Traci's blessings are coming true! His blessings are coming true this month!!! I should probably get ready for a wedding at the end of this year!
So I went to the Temple today. Boo Boo Kitty didn't make it. She forgot her recommend and was stopped at the door. I just sat in the room, prayed for comfort and peace. Again, I felt that strong sense of peace and serenity in that building. When she didn't show up, I started to leave and there she was, at the door, waiting to be admitted. We talked a little bit and then off I went to work.
The blessing that came to me today was, a guy in my neighborhood posted that he does mechanic work on the side. A friend, Lindsey S. posted that she had him do stuff for her and it really made me want him to do things for me too. He came to my workplace, I had the supplies and he changed my oil and made the engine light go off with a simple repair. He is Native American, so I had to give him something more than just money. I only paid $20 for the oil change. He did a great job! So I am going to have him do my breaks. I just need to buy the supplies again and he'll put new rotors and break pads! This is such a blessing because I have saved hundreds of dollars with his talents! Now I don't need to spend a ridiculous amount of money on a mechanic! I just need safety inspection and register my car... PERFECT!
Then, while I was driving to work again, I realized how much Lindsey's vouch for Tyrone really meant to me. I realized how much of a wonderful person she is. She is amazing, ,AMAZING! She is so nice and wonderful. I mean, I can't say enough good, wonderful things about her. So I called her and left her a voice message. I was getting choked up about it because there was no other way for me to express my gratitude for her kindness and considerations. I am so lucky to be surrounded by genuinely nice, good, thoughtful people!
On another note, Traci has been whining about his choices. He makes me laugh. He whines a lot when he's unsure about things. I've come to the point where I don't care what happens, as long as he is happy. I dread the thought of him marrying 80, yet it seems like the only way for him to find happiness. He has been whining about how he misses her. I think to myself, Really? That axe wound, you miss so much?.... bluugh! I hate her so much! But I am consigned to accept whatever he decides.
Also, I forgot to mention that I knew of this person coming to work today and I wanted to make sure that I looked extra good. The best feature about me, is my flawless skin! That is about it! HAHAAHAHa. So I made sure that I looked really nice and professional and met that person that I found very attractive. Nothing happened. As it should be.
It is strange sometimes to watch people participate in things that I can't. It's funny to see how people function better when they are in romantic relationships vs. being single. I have found that people are better selves when they are with another. It is so strange. Yet, there are plenty of people who are able to find the beauty inside themselves without another.
... that is probably the bitter part of me talking.... sigh.... I still have more work to do.
I miss you Delysia, so MUCH!
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