Greener on the Other Side

Dear Delysia,

Today, I have struggled a little bit. I have been good for the most part. I bore my testimony about how I believe that the Church is true, that when we live in a way is righteous, that all things that happen to us, are supposed to happen, whether we like it or not. I also bore testimony of me receiving revelation, feeling peace and feeling the influence of the Spirit of God. I have a lot to be happy and grateful for. I can see glimpses of the future. My spiritual gifts are amazing.

It has been hard, because my Best Friend Cousin, has been hurting lately. He feels after people very deeply. I love him. He remind me of a puppy. He just needs attention, love and petting and he is fine after awhile. His true nature is just pure love. But recently he's been struggling with when and how his blessings and promises will occur.

He was given a lot of information a couple of days ago. He told me that J felt the Spirit around him. She remembered who she used to be, she remembered that she was happy. He was also told that he gave her the strength to leave her current boyfriend. He was also told that J stayed around because she wanted to stay close to the Spirit that he brought! :*) He was told that he struggles with holding to revelation because he rationalizes a lot. He was also told that he would get all that was promised to him. He was promised that he is supposed to go thru this because he needs to learn how to use discernment! He needs to see people as they really are. He needs to see others and needs to know how the Lord feels when they choose not to come back. The Lord loves J far more than Traci does.

I find that so interesting. Cory is learning discernment too. He is learning to hear the voice of God with it about people. Trevor is beginning to see them as they really are. I can see the past, present and future. I have learned all good things come at a price. I am to be alone for the rest of my mortal days, Trevor feels really deeply. Cory, I have yet to learn his price. I am sure I will.

He sort of yelled at me and spoke to me in an ugly way because he was holding on to a moment where he felt the Spirit and the things that he felt good about didn't pan out. Therefore he felt that could be the same with J coming back. I was sort of mad about that. He has had plenty of forms of 'proof' that God is on his side and wanting to help him. God ALWAYS keeps his promises! I held my tongue and then told Traci that he has had plenty of moments that were good and moments that were bad to cling too. I told him that if he wanted to cling to the  bad, then do it. But he has had more good happen to him than not.

He is so much better now. :) He brings me a lot of happiness.

Another blessing was, my brakes got fixed today for $80. I have saved so much money on my car repairs! That is something that I have prayed for and BOOM! It has happened!

I went to a company retreat at a Ropes course! It was so much fun! But I realized that I would like to do these types of things with my loved ones. But I won't have loved ones to do those types of things with. At least those things won't be mine. It will be like my nieces or nephews.

I was just feeling meh. Meh is not always good. I just don't care.